I try to understand what it really means to say goodbye as I look upon my blurred reflection. It must be the mirror that really knows what goodbye means as I turn my back on it once again. See into my eyes before you say those words, the words that tear me down, nobody can pick me up at this rate. I see you breathing, living, thriving on the path laid out before you. It's not certain what started this "change" but I am watching, now, from a distance that was started because we all chose to say goodbye. I see it now, hold on, as tears of hollowed joy swell and slide down our faces leaving traces of memories we all share.
I now see reflections of you as I spin in the mirror that loves to play tricks on you, me or whoever dares to believe it's deceitful intentions. It shows me a night spent under the desert stars, a tranquil night disturbed by celebrations of Love and Reunions. An ocean of sand with an electric rainbow dance floor made for these memories that now wash over our faces. The rocks will remember the words that were shared as we danced around fire while our smiles lit up the night. It's hard to see you now. Separated, torn and broken now lost in the night. The concept of goodbye is now starting to show itself to me.
As the light from the computer hits the window, it shows the reflection of a living room turned dance floor filled with just four people, living while its night and sleeping while its light. A small carpet space was now in the hands of Honeybee, as it seduced us into a night of beating the floor beneath our feet. Curtains now closed as we share time around our porch just giving ourselves time to speak. A conversation of the unknown journey we were already embarking on. The fragile future we were to share set the stage for this painful goodbye now enveloping me with the complete understanding of the word.
It means heartache with bipolar sensations of grief and joy watching your eyes in the rearview mirror driving up the 101. It's knowing that the journey set before you is filled with endless roads, tracks and trails that will fill your lives with new dreams and memories away from us. Goodbye to the nights but not the memories. Goodbye to the past but not the future. Goodbye to the West but not your home. Goodbye to now but not to later.
